I keep asking myself how can I feel awesome and heartsick all at the same time, and how I can just sit with it all, knowing that it's all going to come out the way I'm hoping for it to...it seems that God must be working on the back of my tapestry right now...it's tangled and filled with knots, yet it reflects a beauty of its own.
I wasn't really wanting to write about this, but tonight I was listening to Sara Groves' new CD, "Fireflies & Songs." She sings some wonderful songs on this album about real life...I started out listening to "Twice As Good," which is in keeping with my sentimental mood this week, reflecting on how good it is to walk through life with good friends.
I am one of the lucky ones...I have amazing friends, as I wrote about yesterday. I am truly blessed to have people in my life who celebrate my victories and cry with me in painful times. And yet there are moments when even those brief moments of sunlight seem to last only a few minutes in the scheme of a day.
|A Brief Moment of Sunlight|
Anyway, as I was feeling His comfort wrap around me like a warm blanket, suddenly the song changed to "It's Me." I started out listening, and I ended up balling my eyes out through that song and the next one and into the next one. Finally, I came upon the one that spoke deep enough to penetrate and remind me of the prayer I pray for myself.
I know this post is a little darker than usual. I do hope to leave you with hope. I sure have a good measure of it brewing within my spirit. It's just that my soul also carries a lot of pain. I'm walking slowly and carefully through this season in hopes of shedding some of it along the way, and I am confident of this, "that He who began a good work in me will carry it on to completion in Christ." (Philippians 1:6)
|In Quietness & Trust is Your Strength|